I related to his disillusionment. Thinking that he was going for this big dream. Then he kind of saw through it all at one point and went back home. Then he started a bender, which I can relate to of course.
“It creeps up on you and becomes an obsession. It comes out of watching a million movies.”
“It felt good doing a physical job, and going home each evening feeling like I had really done a day's work.”