There are no extraordinary men... just extraordinary circumstances that ordinary men are forced to deal with.
While at the same time knowing that once he had gone down that road, once it was clear that his life was never a peaceful one from that moment on. He always knew that there was somebody that would like to kill him.
What this does for me emotionally, psychologically and spiritually - to look in the mirror and not be ashamed - has been very important in not relapsing.