You do the right thing even if it makes you feel bad. The purpose of life is not to be happy but to be worthy of happiness.
“I loved every second of Catholic church. I loved the sickly sweet rotting-pomegranate smells of the incense. I loved the overwrought altar, the birdbath of holy water, the votive candles; I loved that there was a poor box, the stations of the cross rendered in stained glass on the windows.”