I've gotten to a place where I still love to play and sing, but I don't have any ego agenda left, outside of just wanting to stay in a creative place and play music. I much prefer to sing for somebody else, and to somebody else.
A man who kills on his own is a murderer. A man who kills at his government's request is a national hero.
But when you're beginning, you should try to focus on something you love and your own way of doing things.