You're neither unnatural, nor abominable, nor mad; you're as much a part of what people call nature as anyone else.
Plenty of people miss their share of happiness, not because they never found it, but because they didn't stop to enjoy it.
I've been working professionally as an actor since I was 20. That's going to be 25 years soon. So, that's a veteran. That's a big-time veteran. I've had some great successes, and I've had some not-successes.