Life is hardly more than a fraction of a second. Such a little time to prepare oneself for eternity!
I like to be alone so I can write. But focus can hurt you. I don't want to be some stress casualty in early middle age.
As a young man... you don't know anything about yourself. And add on to that, you're on the cover of magazines. People are interviewing you about what you think. You feel like a real phony.