Ten thousand pounds is the legal value of a negligently taken life, of a child or a parent. A cold and somewhat mean-spirited calculation: you would do better if you slipped on a paving-stone and broke a front tooth.
The first prerogative of an artist in any medium is to make a fool of himself.
And the fact that you must make the movie for yourself because no one else will ever fully appreciate the endeavor, makes it a more rewarding challenge.