Well, you have absolutely no idea what a nightmare it was to be on a set, trying to figure out how I was going to find out what time it is, how I was going to get my meds, and at the same time not have it be obvious to someone.
As a writer, my main objective is to tell the story urgently - as if whispering it into one ear - and to know the characters intimately.
The voice is an instrument that you really must take time to develop. It's like a good red wine Give it time.