“I get in trouble when I say things like, 'I'm attracted to violence.' I was a pretty angry kid, and I got into military history largely as a way to vent my own anger. As I got older it narrowed down to a more specific focus on individual violence. I'm just trying to understand where it came from.”

“I find it is increasingly difficult to spend the time I need with my family and at the same time do the job that needs to be done.”