Fear is a question: What are you afraid of, and why? Just as the seed of health is in illness, because illness contains information, your fears are a treasure house of self-knowledge if you explore them.
I think in some ways it's good to have at least one thing for which you could be really immortal, you know?
Like many Catholics, I was very affected by the personality of Jesus and that impression, pious as it was, has stayed with me.