I don't think the record company is aware of it. Because they just bury my albums and don't release them.
At the end of the day, we need a leader who thinks with his head but leads with his heart.
No matter what - rehearsed, under-rehearsed, over-rehearsed, doubts about rehearsing - the first gig is always the first gig, and you put on your little praying hat, batten down the hatch, and do what you do.