So, immediately after that, I got a commission to write a piece for chamber orchestra, and in working on the material I discovered it was possible to incorporate the Buddhist teachings into the music, so that's what I started to do.
Well, we all know that self-esteem comes from what you think of you, not what other people think of you.
For years I wrote in my basement. More recently I graduated to one floor above, an office with all my books and music and - ta da! - a window.