The language fictional characters use is chosen for effect, at least if the author is concentrating.
Let's just say I decided that while my son is young I don't want to do projects that would take me away for months.
Being on the run, having to change the way that you do business, being unable to plan in a safe and secure environment, always looking over your shoulder, knowing that some day somebody's going to knock on your door and it's going to be your last.