In other words, for every 10 enemy you kill you bring on 20 new recruits to their anti-coalition cause then essentially you are working against yourself.
I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead.
I mean, the things you think will never happen, you have to confront; those things that come into your life that you thought you never could deal with, you do.