You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“In Europe, architects consider themselves artists. They think they're special when they win a competition.”
“I didn't grasp the basic principle of being a promoter, which was: Put on music but also generate an income. I was on the dole most of the time.”