You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“The war on terror is a fight that we did not start, but it is one that we shall finish.”
“I remember that during the period leading up to independence in Angola in 1975, I was the only correspondent there at all for three months.”