You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“I don't know about Heaven or Hell, but I do know that we are visited all the time by the spirits of those who affected us in life.”
“As a state senator and then a congressman, I've had the privilege of trying to do good things for people to whom I owe so much and can never fully repay.”