You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“I think a basic level of fitness can help the body cope with all manner of incidents.”
“I know it is all right. I wish I could make you feel so, I wish I could describe my feelings.”