You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“Except among those whose education has been in the minimalist style, it is understood that hasty moral judgments about the past are a form of injustice.”
“Thank you for life, and all the little ups and downs that make it worth living.”