You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“Several tons of dynamite are set off in this picture - none of it under the right people.”
“I bought a little hideaway up north, so I'll ship my motorcycle up there. It's much less dangerous than West Hollywood.”