You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“The trouble with photographing beautiful women is that you never get into the dark room until after they've gone.”
“The easiest thing to find on God's green earth is someone to tell you all the things you cannot do.”