You're just sort of searching for this 'thing' and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. All music is imperfect, but in jazz since you're improvising, at least the way I play, I'm trying to follow my train of thought in a solo.
“If writers learn more from their books than do readers, perhaps I may have begun to learn.”
“My theory is if you have a religion, it's a good one. Because some people don't have any at all.”