And this is why the defense is going to try to paint my brother out to be a drug addict and he was very dependent on drugs, and it's not true. Because how could someone be dependent on drugs since 2008, he was dancing four hours a day and he had a five-year plan of starting a new life.
I just feel like sometimes I'm a force to be dealt with. My talents are sometimes overused and also sometimes underused. It's not easy being me.
I was deeply uncertain of who I was and who I wanted to be. I really thought I wanted to be a much cooler guy than what I was.

