Am I calm all the time? That is a question to ask my mother. I am very happy in my home. I have a good family, that gives me something extra.
The public needs art - and it is the responsibility of a 'self-proclaimed artist' to realize that the public needs art, and not to make bourgeois art for a few and ignore the masses.
Go ahead, work hard and never be afraid to try something. Even if you don't make it, at least you can say you tried.