I like to be alone so I can write. But focus can hurt you. I don't want to be some stress casualty in early middle age.
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Women have a way of contorting things sometimes. We all have our moods, ups and downs.