In teaching you cannot see the fruit of a day's work. It is invisible and remains so, maybe for twenty years.
These are my friends, my family. It would be hell on earth to spend the rest of my life leading them into situations where some of them are going to get killed... but it would be worse watching someone well-meaning but incompetent or untrained double those deaths.
It is little men know of women; their smiles and their tears alike are seldom what they seem.