As an actor, I'm familiar with having bursts of energy, where you're giving things a try, and then you have down time.
Time always seems long to the child who is waiting - for Christmas, for next summer, for becoming a grownup: long also when he surrenders his whole soul to each moment of a happy day.
I accrued anger from people's low opinion of me and my work, and for the work I might be capable of.