The whole point of diaries is that other people find them and read what you've put. I did once take to writing my inner thoughts on the computer at the end of other things I was writing and ended up faxing four pages of hideous stuff to my accountant so I don't do that now.
When I race in Australia or Korea or Japan I know it will be a big change for me because Ferrari fans are worldwide.
Self-love has very little to do with how you feel about your outer self. It's about accepting all of yourself.