A very wise author once said that a writer writes for himself, and then publishes for money. I write for myself and publish just for the reader.
Maybe if I didn't have the talent in chess I'd find the talent in something else. The only thing I know is that I have talent in chess, and I'm satisfied with that.
What I truly miss the most is having sufficient time to do all the things that need to be done around the house and for our friends.