Obviously Victoria and Mel B have become mothers and there is a part of me that wants to be a mum.
Realism is a bad word. In a sense everything is realistic. I see no line between the imaginary and the real.
Of course, if this season turns out to be terrible for me - if I get injured again and this prevents me from reaching a satisfying level, then I could change my decision again. But at this moment, it absolutely feels like the right thing for me to continue through 2003.