I didn't expect such a huge reaction, but I knew I was doing something different to everything else that was happening at the time.
				I had a longing for ritual, something I could cling to, a routine to make me feel well and contented. I hoped that reading Bible commentaries and theological critiques would nudge me closer to some kind of absolute that I could hold up as a torch to light my way.			
				
			I love my family and I miss them very much but I'm a new person now. I know a lot of people will not agree with what I've done, but it was right for me.			 
			

