I have no problem being 53. Why would I want to be 35 again? I want to discover who I am in my 50s. And if I tried too hard to look younger, it would seem that I was uncomfortable with who I am, wouldn't it?
And so, it's not a thing of how many carries, but were you effective when you did carry.
Remember that you are needed. There is at least one important work to be done that will not be done unless you do it.