Creativity itself doesn't care at all about results - the only thing it craves is the process. Learn to love the process and let whatever happens next happen, without fussing too much about it. Work like a monk, or a mule, or some other representative metaphor for diligence. Love the work. Destiny w
I don't think you can have pain and soul-searching doing the right thing for your child.
I think being able to age gracefully is a very important talent. It is too late for me.