I know what I have to do and I plan to do it. It's a good time to get it done and get it behind me. It's treatable, so why not treat it now? My family will give me comfort but I have to do this alone.
And people are intrigued if I really am as grumpy in real life. People feel a bit let down if I'm laughing or smiling.
What happens is that your wretched memory remembers the words and forgets what's behind them.