But yeah, I played bass guitar in high school and in college and then I actually fractured my thumb, so my bass career went bye-bye.
I wanted to learn how to skate backwards and they wouldn't help me and they went off and left me on my own.
I didn't really want to live, so anything that was an investment in time made me angry... but also I just felt sad. When the hopelessness is hurting you, it's the fixtures and fittings that finish you off.