But to do this kind of work, you have to be very strong, otherwise you lose your personality, your identity.
Sometimes it's necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly.
If they conducted a raid in this room, you'd all be policed up. They'd take all of you to Abu Ghraib and turn you over to the soldiers. Maybe there's only one or two of you in this group who was a known associate or had any piece of information that they are trying to exploit.