The exchange by e-mail is more intimate than conversation - you allow yourself to say things you otherwise wouldn't.
I was taught from a young age that many people would treat me as a second-class citizen because I was African-American and because I was female.
I believe God is managing affairs and that He doesn't need any advice from me. With God in charge, I believe everything will work out for the best in the end. So what is there to worry about.