If everyone really knew what a jerk I am in real life, I wouldn't be so adored in the slightest.
Now, performing is second nature and I love every second of it. It is a very emotional thing when I can't play a song; maybe I'm hitting on something that I don't want to deal with. All of it is so personal. It is like therapy.
My mom never taught me to be waiting for some prince on a white horse to swipe me off my feet.