I was the classic middle child in some ways, the one who could have been a priest in an alternate universe.
Once you accept your own death, all of a sudden you're free to live. You no longer care about your reputation. You no longer care except so far as your life can be used tactically to promote a cause you believe in.
Many have been with the show for years, and they have sources in the business, so we do know things, but until it is verified, we don't run with the story.