You fool around with different pitches playing catch, but it's not the same when you've got to face some guy with a bat in his hand.
However, I survived and started to read all chemistry books that I could get a hand on, first some 19th century books from our home library that did not provide much reliable information, and then I emptied the rather extensive city library.
Hey, I may loathe myself, but it has nothing to do with the fact that I'm Jewish.