The mystery of the beginning of all things is insoluble by us; and I for one must be content to remain an agnostic.
My dad has always been extremely supportive in every decision I've made and much more interested in me picking what I wanted to do.
Dave Sim said in his latest thing of his, 'when you're on the right track, you'll know it, but until you get there, you have to believe you're on the right track'. Interesting little conundrum. It's not easy.