It's like you asked me about the depression thing: you grope towards an understanding of whatever it is your going through, and it's not personal, there are forces in play around you, and you seek to understand them and that way you can go on.
“People can save the world by the way they think and by the way they behave and what they hold to be important.”
“If I gain support, the support doesn't seem to mean anything. It's not like anyone really cares about me.”