I don't really know who I am as an actor: the best thing would be to experiment with it for the next 30 years and never really find out.
There's a constant drip and trickle of life that goes into one's awareness really and consciousness of things.
For I, hearing my Lord's estate amongst many more estates was to be sold, and that the wives of the owners should have an allowance therefrom, it gave me hopes I should receive a benefit thereby.