There's never going to be a decathlon that you're going to have 10 events that your satisfied with. You're always, always going to be dissatisfied in something, and that always draws you back to try to retry that the next time you do a decathlon. It's like you go for the perfect 10.
Let us put theology out of religion. Theology has always sent the worst to heaven, the best to hell.
I feel the capacity to care is the thing which gives life its deepest significance.