I had had an extroverted personality with a lot of friends, but when I lost the weight and grew so tall, I withdrew within myself.
So here is one of my theories on happiness: we cannot know if we have lived a truly happy life until the very end. This view of life and death was reinforced by my close witnessing of the buildup to the death of Philip Gould. Philip was without doubt my closest friend in politics. When he died, I fe