The truth is I love being alive. And I love feeling free. So if I can't have those things then I feel like a caged animal and I'd rather not be in a cage. I'd rather be dead. And it's real simple. And I think it's not that uncommon.
And as far as false hope, there is no such thing. There is only hope or the absence of hope-nothing else.
We made 16 episodes of Cracker and I loved doing the show, but unfortunately no one was watching us.