In Hollywood you always feel a bit like a hake. The publicists march people up and down in front of you and they interview you... You feel like the turbot and the sea-bream go by, and you're the hake.
It came to me then in a flash that obviously the temperature of the water was responsible for the nystagmus.
You cannot be happy with your family while being personally unhappy with your work. It's a Catch-22 kind of thing.