By the late '70s I had come to question the point of a great deal of what we were doing, in terms of the CIA's overall charter.
When I play, I very quickly put myself into a light hypnotic trance and compose while playing, drawing directly from the emotions.
I was always a little unsteady in my self-belief. Then there was the Jewish thing. I love being Jewish, I have no problem with it at all. But it did become like a scar, with all these people saying you don't look it.