But if you want to be in a band and write music, then you should just be in a band and write music.
I'm lucky to have a great support system in my friends and some of my family. If you have those people that you trust, go ahead and fall back into them and let them be your hammock and cocoon and let them embrace you.
We must not enable anyone to impose his personal view regarding religion on others by force, oppression, or pressure.