Music is thousands and thousands of years old and I don't think that basic, primitive connection to the language of music ever changes.
Chasing the sensation. Whether it was drugs or sex or whatever. Those things had become my main focus in life.
If I was in love with someone, I would get their picture out of the school yearbook and do portraits. If I was curious about sex, I would draw pictures of it. There were no books for me to look at. Then I would go find my father's matches to burn the paper.