If you take your fear and mash it into something that's actually useful, then it doesn't feel like it wins.
The best musicians or sound-artists are people who never considered themselves to be artists or musicians.
Maybe I was 7 - I probably am exaggerating a little - and immediately was plunged into the fact that there was an official place to put your fantasies. Up until then I didn't know what I would do with them all. It was very exciting for me, and I began very, very early on.