I finally realized that yeah I did want to be an actor and it wasn't out of habit, but I needed to grow up for myself and then kind of re-enter the industry with a sound understanding of what my sensibilities and my values are as a relatively formed human being.
It would be simply suicidal to French Canadians to form a party by themselves.
No individual has any right to come into the world and go out of it without leaving behind him distinct and legitimate reasons for having passed through it.