I was the type of person that would show a PowerPoint presentation about why I should do something versus crying and screaming over it.
I was thrilled one year when I was younger when not only did my brothers get hockey sticks for Christmas - but I did too!
I would advise you to write, my dear friend, because with your active nature, solitude is simply intolerable to you, and after some time your solitude would become perhaps attractive if you were to people it with creatures of your own fancy.